Out of the dark and into the water

30 week Belly—-Veins protrude, skin expands, his body swimming in utero. My emotions seem to be back in order, as my belly continues to stretch, making room for this delicate saint that dances inside of me.  I try to take it all in and enjoy every second of this miraculous gift. How am I so lucky to go through this again? Does every mom go through these periods of intense light and dark? I find myself overcome with feelings as expansive as the universe. They used to be depressive, now they are mostly full of illuminated bliss. I do feel like a wobbling bowling pin, I run out of breath easily, get full when I’ve only eaten a few bites, and then eat every couple of hours to satisfy my hunger. Oh! And nights have been tougher and tougher. I go to the bathroom every two hours, my nose is congested, and I can’t find a comfortable position. Joy!

Last check up with the midwife, I gained 3 pounds in 2 weeks. Being the detective that she is, she got to the bottom of it and I confessed that I’ve been snacking at night and eating cookies (even if they are organic, gluten free and low sugar!). She asked me to cut those out, not eat carbs at dinner time, have protein every meal, and watch my sugar intake. Ok, I’ll be a good girl. Overall, I haven’t gained much weight and I’m not worried about it. I’ve been pretty good. But I DO feel much bigger than with my other two pregnancies. What I’m working on is my iron intake.

I was anemic months before getting pregnant. Took supplements for about 4 months and was fine. Then I got pregnant and ate horribly the first three months of nausea-hell. Then I started eating well, tolerating vegetables again, and really being conscious of what I put in my mouth. And now, I have anemia again. So I’m taking supplements again, drinking spinach smoothies, eating lots of greens and beans and I think I’ll be fine.

I have 8 weeks to go and I can’t believe it. It’s starting to feel real! But we’re ready, I think? We have everything we need. We switched the kids rooms, and Y will sleep in the slightly smaller room, while F and S share the bigger room. That way, we still have  a guest room. They’re happy about it, and I’m glad we’ve been able to transition NOW, rather than when the baby is here. I still have closets to organize, and toys to sort out. The best thing is that F is FINALLY in his own bed (at 3 years old!). We got him a “boat bed” and he’s been super excited to sleep in it. Now that the kids are sleeping through the night, I’m the one who can’t sleep. I pray that baby S sleeps better than these two. I’m talking a lot to him about it already.

As far as the birth, I can’t wait. I’m working on my labor play-list. Music helped tremendously with F’s birth. And we have most of the supplies we need. (I’m writing a blog about that next).

We’ve looked into buying  a birth pool because we’d like to try a water birth. With F’s home birth last time, I didn’t have a birth pool, and my bath tub is not big enough so it wasn’t an option. There are many benefits to a water birth. Warm water lets you relax, it makes the intensity of the contractions more bearable because of the buoyancy factor and better blood circulation, it reduces the chance of tearing, and it’s a smoother transition for the baby when born. I’ve witnessed five water births while filming my documentary, and the women seemed to transform themselves as they stepped into the water. I want to have the option of a water birth, and at home I do. I know some hospitals allow you to labor in the water. But I don’t think any of them allow you to BIRTH in them.

It’s been 2 months since my last post and in another 2 months, I’ll have my baby. I thought I’d be writing more throughout this pregnancy. But I just haven’t had the time. I also thought I’d be taking more bubble baths, but again, there’s no time with two other kids running around. I’m going to make an effort, though, to take at least one bubble bath a week. The TWO baths I’ve taken these past 7 months were magical. Here’s to more baths and more magic!




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